Today we packed up the kids and ventured to downtown Toronto. We took the subway…mostly because I won’t drive in the city, but also because the kids LOVE it. It’s an adventure for them. The TTC has a great family pass on the weekends for $10.50 where a family of 6 can go all around the city as many trips as they want for that price. Of course we have to buy 2 for our family, but at $21.00 it’s cheaper than 9 fares, twice.
The purpose of our visit? To go up this:
I have to say, this is not my idea of a fun trip. I went because I told Allen, who is almost as afraid of heights as I am, that I would go up if he would. So we did, here’s the proof:
I was ok until the kids wanted to go down a level to the glass floor. Yes, the CN Tower, at the 1136 foot level, has a glass floor.
The thought makes me physically ill. I started going down, but then I saw the observation deck that was outside. That’s when I went into full panic mode. Not only am I afraid of the heights, I am terrified that my kids are going to fall. I knew that they were going to want to go outside, as well as go on the glass floor, and I lost it. I started shaking and my heart started racing. I let them go because I don’t want my fears to compromise their fun, but I stayed upstairs. It was embarrassing, but I just couldn’t stop myself, I was in tears. So I went to the bathroom, composed myself and waited for the kids to return. Allen came and kept me company because he did not want to go outside.
The thing is…I KNOW it’s completely safe up there. My fears are totally irrational. I don’t think anyone has ever fallen from the CN Tower. They have a cage outside that you can’t even slip a dime through. I can reason things out, tell myself that everything will be ok, then the fear overtakes me. It is difficult to say the least.
But I survived, just barely, and I really, really, really, enjoyed the trip down in the elevator, LOL! We went out and got hot dogs from a vendor, and looked WAY UP and saw the crazy people doing Edge Walk.
We are back home safe and sound. Having hamburgers grilled on the BBQ for dinner. I am going to crack open a beer and watch the Olympics.
Do you have any irrational fears??? Do tell, perhaps it will make me feel better to know I am not alone!