Things have been rough around here.
As most of you know, my 8-year-old, Andrew, is on the autism spectrum. Life on the spectrum has it’s ups and downs, but right now we’re having some very serious downs.
Andrew’s behaviours are getting a little out of control, lots of outbursts, lots of self-injurious behaviour, negative self talk (I hate myself, no one likes me, I’m stupid, etc). He’s charged at other students, tried to hit them and his TA. He hits himself, a lot. It’s not fun.
Most of all, all I can think about is how hard it must be for him to not be able to communicate how he’s feeling. Andrew can talk, in fact, he’s pretty articulate, but he has real trouble figuring out exactly what emotion he’s feeling and more trouble putting that into words. When he gets this way, I want to pull him close and hug him until he feels better.
Today I got hauled into the principals office with the Principal, VP, Andrew’s TA and Andrew. We chatted about his behaviour and Mr. F. tried to get him to understand the “ripple effect” that his behaviour has on others. Not sure if he got through. Andrew doesn’t have a lot of empathy…he’s fairly self-absorbed (which is in total contrast to my other kid on the spectrum, who has empathy running out his pores, lol). They tried some different strategies and helped him identify when his anxiety is rising, and he had a better day at school. Unfortunately he has had a tumultuous afternoon here at home. I am at a loss at what to do. We’re starting some positive affirmations, working on his PACE (positive, active, clear, energetic) activities, but I am not sure if that is going to help. I am looking into other things that we can do to help him.
Sorry for the whining…I am just feeling stressed out lately because of all this. It’s written all over my face in a rosacea outbreak. I don’t normally post about the negative of autism, because well, we are inundated with the negative from the media, etc. I like to shed more positivity, but today…
Today, I just needed to vent.
Thanks for listening.